Any of the 60 seconds of the minute
that is behind me could have been my last second in this life. Got up
this morning for work thinking about death & just how interesting
it is that human beings are fairly vulnerable but we proceed with life
relatively sure that we're going to get another tomorrow.
Head goes to some dark places when I don't get sleep over an extended period of time.
Got
a call from someone I used to be very close to once upon a time about
an hour ago. As I listened to the update on her life, only part of
which I heard because my mind started floating off to memories of that
place where we used to be as opposed to where we are now, my heart
sank. Where did we lose the core of our relationship? When? More
importantly, if I could go back & retrieve what's been lost...
Shouldn't
personalize it. Life happens, people follow their separate paths. But
the last 5 years have been particularly rich with loss of interpersonal
connections for me. I'm supposed to be learning something.
Maybe some of it is that I left to move here. Maybe I've changed. Or something.
Whatever.
Gotta get ready to go out.
